It's Only Been 4 Days!

It's only the fourth day of the semester but already I feel so exhausted. I hate walking in campus,seeing people I dont know,people that dont matter,kiasu coursemates and doing things I dont want to. I just want to go to class, do what I have to and get the hell out of campus. I get irritated when I see students 'lepaking' in campus, like they're really enjoying themselves sitting at corridors and cafes,yapping without a care. I guess its partly because I used to enjoy doing exactly that but somehow lost it over the past couple of months. And I can't see any way it's gonna be rekindled.
I kinda miss last semester; yum char sessions,church, choir (see how academis don't fit in?;))It was so much fun, things looked good,everyone was happy, not just superficially. But I know I had a part to play in killing all the fun.
The concept of karma, though overrated, is most definitely true. Each beginning must have an end. What goes up must come down. What goes around will come around.
At least memories dance lively in our minds.
That doesn't mean I'm living in the past, it just means I'm using these so-called good times to move forward. So far so good...
I thought I was the only one,but Mai Yin has been waking up each day feeling like crap too. You know how there are days when you get up in the morning inspired and motivated to seize the day and look forward to going about it? Well, simply put,it's a feeling so foreign right now.Maybe I haven't settled down yet.
Let's see how things go.
The ironic thing is, each subject that I've registered for this time is INTERESTING. Each one of them! Oh, except lab, of course. I've never liked lab sessions. Each experiment is a test of my stupidity and patience. Almost always, half my product is filter paper mesh.
Finally gonna enjoy the academics! Pity I had to wait till the final semester to smile in a lecture hall.
Anyway, back to the subjects.
I attended my first class on Abnormal Psychology. This is the first time a lecturer had 100% of my attention from the beginning till the end, my mind didn't wander at all. That's how awesome his class is. He's gonna organise a talk on supernatural stuff and exorcism by people who are knowledgable n these topics. Cool, huh?Then we're gonna visit psychiatry wards and interview psychiatrists, counsellors and psychologists and write papers on our 'activities'. There'll also be topics on Human Sexuality, Schizoprenia, and Suicidal Tendencies among others.
Now, don't you think Abnormal Psychology should cover The Abnormal Workings Of The Male Mind? Talk about a truly enlightening subject matter!
The other papers are Palm Oil Technology (the lecturer is not bad looking, and really nice on top of that!Motivation...hhmmm),and Pollution and Environmental Chemistry.
Okay, before you think I'm a freak calling these papers 'interesting', you have to understand that I detest what I'm doing. My past Chemistry papers involved spectroscopy(joy!), physical chemistry (yippie!) inorganic Chemistrty (just shoot me!).
So,excuse me being excited over these papers. At last, Chemistry papers with proper human-related current issues. Politics in Chemistry?Hmmm...
Oh yeah, I'm also taking Tamil. Yes, I'll be doing my first level Tamil.
Soon, I'd shed the 'coconut' name...
Soon, I'll be ordering food in Tamil; no more amused looks from indian waiters coz I answer their questions in Malay...
Soon, I'll be bargaining sarees without feeling stupid and coming off cheated...
Soon, I won't be a karrupu suthe vella karachi anymore...
SOON!



My bud,Taren and I....

It's My Party And I'll Cry If I Want To

So it's my birthday,things were supposed to go my way..but its funny how everything has a funny way of screwing up when you don't need it to..
Today was supposed to be my day...yeah,right.
Besides all the birthday tidings i got from lotsa people and the cake,and the flowers,perfume and wine..the whole day basically stank.
We were supposed to drink together last night..all the hommies..and that didn't happen..
Since its the first day of the semester,I had to go register for my subjects today.I dont know if i've been away from penang too long, or was it that Penang was exceptionally hot today. I had to walk the whole campus to get everything done and sorted out,yet I still didnt find the time to go register.
Why?
Coz the ass of the lecturer decided to start our lab sessions today.The first day!My birthday!
Oh well,I'll register tomorrow..
If things couldnt get any worse,I almost became blind today!On my birthday! Its amazing how final year chemistry students dont understand the basic concepts of chemistry.There was this clown of a girl who went on shaking the separation funnel in my direction without releasing the pressure..and guess what?The stopper flew out and the mixture made an awesome trajectory into my eyes...silly me wasnt wearing my goggles/glasses today coz i never expected for classes to begin on the first day! My birthday!
The stupid girl just sheepishly apologised...The mixture of chloroform,cyclohexane and other sh*t that went into my eye actually dissolved the paint on the table..imagine that!J
ust last night Jo asked me which I'd rather lose,my eyesight or my hearing, if I had to make a choice..and i said my eyesight..spoke too soon!T
here's just three hours left of this day and I havent enjoyed it one bit!Now, here I am,sitting in front of the pc looking all pretty,waiting for my couz to come take me out to Shamrock...finally,I'm gonna drink,and hopefully salvage whatever's left of this day!My so-called birthday!I'm actually worried if I'm beginning to turn to alcohol when sh*t happens..another year older and I still dont know where this crap called life is taking me...Oh, well...

Home,not sweet home...

Greetings from SARAWAK....
aahh..it feels good to be home..
the only thing that pisses me off is the fact that i have to go to a cybercafe to do my www thingy..all coz stupid lil bro decided it'll be good for all of us if he raked the phone bill up to 1K..yeah, you heard me...oops,i mean read me, right..
Appa refuses to pay..said he'd rather pay for our cybercafe sessions...joy!
And, the speakers of the home stereo is busted...so my source of music is the PC...
God, those annoying graphics of windows media player is driving me nuts...round and round..twril and twirl...drop,run catch...cheh..like i havent got enough crap to think about...
So,all i have right now is my baby.My organ.
I've written 2 awesome songs..just like that.in an hour.
one's a jazz-blues-country sounding thingy,another is a praise and worship sorta song..not bad,i must say so myself...
That's the only good that have come out of my trip home so far..
Everyone was so excited that I was coming home that they decided to wait in the car, parked far off the entrance of the airport..i could just feel their enthusiam....
can you believe it??i havent been home for 5 months,damn it!! No hot meal waiting on the dinner table too...ate out instead...that's what i've been eating for 5 months!!!!cheh....
Ah well, i should be thankful i'm not gonna be zipping open my purse for the next 2 weeks...;)