Of first impressions and flirting..

If first impressions are gonna be a deciding factor if there're gonna be a chance for a next meeting, I dont think there'll be many for me.
See, my problem is, though I dont look it, I am exteremely shy when I'm around people I barely know. Extremely shy, and extremely conscious.
Some who know what a clown I can be are probably wondering what the hell I'm talking about..

The truth is, as impossible as it may seem, I can get really quiet. And if I kinda fancy a person, all the english lessons in the world cant help me,coz all my words and grammar gets jumbled up. It's so stupid, coz in the end i come across looking really dumb..and feeling very much the same.
Besides appearing truly boring, of course.

It's really frustrating sometimes, coz you wanna impress, but you get worried if you accidentally say something stupid, or something that night give you away.
Wait a minute...why do i keep saying 'you', I mean 'me'..:)

Then there's the thing about flirting.
Whats the use of being single when you cant flirt?Right?
Right..
Now, I CANNOT flirt to save myself. It's just not in me la I guess. Batting eyelashes and suggestive body languange is as far from me as heaven is from the earth.
And I dont plan to try. Coz I've seen girls who try too hard. At the end of it all, they look like they're suffering from severe symptoms of an eye infection. And those with the overworked body language appear whore-ish..
Mai Yin is the grand master sifu at this, and so are most of the shah alam girls I've met(must be the air they breathe)

So the plan is for me n Jo ( though I think she does it pretty well unrealisingly :)) to get a 101 from her before we graduate. Chunku is so gonna kill me..I love you Kavitha/Kalpana!!

Shit, I'm sleeppppppppppppyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!