An Ode To My Loves

My first hour in Klang,and i'm in a cybercafe..thats how much I've missed this place.

Walking with Maiyin and Paran from Pudu to the Central Market LRT station, I couldn't help feeling detached from this once familiar ground. It hit me that I've kinda grown to love Penang,grown comfortable there..and I cant imagine living the next half of my life in this place. Cant stand the roads, the places, the faces..
And its gloomy here...kinda reflective of my mood right now. The only consolation is that I'll be back in Penang on Friday...

Being directionless is awful. I'm so used to being in control of almost everything around me that this current status is threatening my sanity. SUCKS!!!!
I need to do something. I hate not being useful.

I know I have to shelf these past three years for a while..but the scary thing is that I think I'm gonna forget. Forget the good times, the wonderful people, the daily routines.
How nice it would be to have an excellent memory.
Penang, living away from my family, meeting new people, extremes of experiences...they've all somewhat moulded me. To what, you may ask?
Truth is, I dont really know myself...still a lil lost. The process of trying to find myself has been an ardous one. Just when I think I know what I should do, I'll surprise myself by doing the exact opposite.

One thing for sure, I've made real good friends. The ones that kicked me in the ass when the situation required. The ones that shared similar values. The ones that doused fires when things got too heaty. The ones that understood the pain I didnt express. The ones that made me the clown I am. The ones that dirty danced with me when I felt a lil gatal.

As we go our own ways, I hope they remember the years gone by with as much fondness as I would.

Mai Yin,
The stupidest thing I ever did was to judge you wthout even knowing you.
Thought you were a big time snob. The only way I can defend myself is that I wasnt the only one..;)
Well darling...it's been a great three years, dont you think? From someone who didnt even give hugs of parting..you've turned into a person who cant keep her hands off the people around you...
I'll always remember our stalking activities...
The times when we ponteng kelas to go play the piano at Pusat Seni.
The endless makan sessions at every cafe in sight...
Clubbing sessions...
Pesta Hoki..

Our elementary duet peices...late night what-if conversations, bitching sessions...all the notes (pages and ages of them) we wrote each other even though we sat beside each other during lectures...stealing flower pots and changing price tags...church...Charlie's angels
Pisang goreng and tea,supper, Pelita, doing laundry,badminton
We rocked that stupid boring USM....though almost everyone hated our guts.Cant help it if we intimidate them now, can we?:)
You were the outcast among the Chinese, and I among the Indians..what better union?
Sorry if I played a part in making you a murtad,but it was all for the best ;)
Consult me when you need to buy baju n coordinate your out fits k...:)
Dont disappoint me...:)

Thank you for your concern and care, for your time and patience, for your sensitivity and wild sense of fun. And for being my partner in crime...
And yes, I must admit, we threw an awesome party...even without alcohol...
Good thing you're nearby..will 'come find you' at each possible chance...

I wish you sunshine and smiles, midriff tops and no umbrellas on rainy days ;) (you know what I mean)
I hope wherever life brings you, dreams pick you up.
For the lovely three years...my gratitude..
Love you,babe.

Jojo,
You were literally the baby,huh? Muka so innocent can get away with murder..
That night at the boys place wont be the last piggyback ride I give you. I promise you at least one each time we meet k? Even if its just from the room to the kitchen.
I'll remember feeding you rice..kong pou kai fan...breaking fights between you and Mai Yin...Taking sides, which daughter was right, which daughter deserved my love more..;)
I'm gonna miss you terribly...all our pillow talks when Maiyin boiled porridge on the phone.
Its nice finding someone who shares same tastes in clothes, shoes, and bags (in men,we're worlds apart)...Mai Yin tak boleh harap ready...forever with her sports shoes..
I know you'll always think I'm mad...what with the 3am-Light-And-Easy boo-hoo sessions...thanks for wiping my tears.

You know what song will always remind me of you?Beautiful Surprise...:) remember sitting in front of the radio in the middle of the night? Ha! There's proof that you jiwang-ed also...:)
Thanks for all the rides, all the favours..
I enjoyed all the kutuking, tom yam maggi, butt spanking,suggestive conversations ;) STALKING, dirty dancing...ronda-ing in town at 3 am for no reason in our house baju...nasi lemak ayam..idli and thosai...Charlie's angels, the amazing amount of clothes you have for laundry, Pesta Hoki,Kayu, downloading songs,NIKKO SMITH...

The next time I see you, dont be so buta teknologi anymore k..and please darling,learn your Penang!
I wont be there to be your compass anymore...
I think we unleashed the wild side of you...remember our dance in SS last August..I was shocked myself...heheh..
PUNJAB PACK??

Take care, dont let anyone push you around,dont take shit from no one...
if they do..you know who to call...
If any boy breaks your heart, I'll break his legs..
am glad that you've grown to a a lil brutal...its a good thing...we thought you well...

My home (come june) will always be open to you...Come down often k...we'll rock KL together-gether...maybe even stalk reshmonu again,like the good old days...
I'll try and make it up as often as I can too...
remember,dont send ugly babies to my house...they'll be scarred for life...

I hope you find happiness in all that you do..and for heavens sake...think of the future a bit..you ARE gonna get married,coz I'm gonna be your bridesmaid and your childrens godma...
Stay the way you are,kill em with the eyeliners...
I love you girl...so much..
you couldnt have been a better friend..
muakks...

Taren,
You're the one who started all the name calling...you christened me slut, bitch and whore..
Ironically, those names brought us closer...dont you think?
all the times I had to lie for you when answering the phone calls..you owe me..coz its not in my system to sin..i know you're laughing now...

Remember our makeup experiments,like lil kids and buncho crayons... your INDECISIVENESS when it comes to food!
You rolled your eyes when i started kinky conversations just to irritate you...
Thanks for the hot meals on the table, there's just something bout your touch...

I know you understand where I'm coming from..we share the same bitter past...
Dont let that pull you down k...
Okay, I know I turn a deaf ear when you compliment yourself, but here goes (someone,shoot me!)
you are gorgoeus,every bit....dont kembang k...
And if i have to barge uninvited to your wedding..expect it! Or else it's waikiki's without you ;P

I'm already missing the masagges darling..
You'll make a wonderful mummy, what with your unconditional care and thoughtfulness
I love the pashmina you bought me,it was very thoughtful of you...
I take it almost everywhere I go..
Like I've told you, you've strengthened my defense mechanism when it comes to sarcasm...what with us always being at each other's throats, with some kinda insult or other...You know, I think we have a undefineable relationship...love-hate-with-love? hahah...
But you're damn funny..and we trained the other 2 monkeys pretty well in the 'sense-of-humour' dept...they were pretty hopeless in the beginning huh?
Sorry if I scared you with the hantu stories...hehhe...it was INTENTIONAL!

Remember the tuition plan k!
Though we didnt hang out as much, know that you're loved and appreciated very much so...our paths are gonna cross again...like it or not!
Thanks for making these past 3 years a colourful one for me...
Love ya loads...